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Jogja to forget about ~

you can ask me the reason I went to Jogja more soon than my plan , people . yeah , surely I can say that Iwant forget about Malang even I miss it so much . I want forget about person who can makes me happy , in a fake ! I want release this feelings . "dengan semua ke-aku-anku aku melepasmu, bismillah" I have been one week here , want make my own schedule busy until I cann't thinking about him . much talking with my friend , he said that I can forget him , release him but I need more time . much time , maybe . the problem is just TIME !

I know you want release from me . and surely I say that I want release this feeling to you . I want release you too . so , it's fair if I release you and you release me from your life . isn't it ? you can open your heart to the other one and I will happy with my life here without thinking about you anymore :)

I want happ , for a real . you bring the happiness for me in a fake . you want me happy but you didn't happy beside me . how cruel I am ? I want you happy , and me too even we aren't together anymore . like you said . yes I can , it's my roght to be happy without you .

so , goodbye . I will realease you steb by step . I know it's hard for me .maybe went to Jogja like this could help me to make it easier . and I have lot of friend who can help me to not thinking about you anymore . you know I will always love you , love . I just saving you deep in my heart and closing it with other :)

THAT'S FOR REAL !

that's the real one . thank you for made me aware with this situation . finally I know what to do .

reply this with a silent

SOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRYYYYYY !

I didn't know what to do with this chat on YM . I wrote nothing -,- just looked my laptop screen and watched he sent many messages , and finally I off YM without replied it . I want say sorry to you , I don't want make a mistake again . you want meet me and I want meet you , as a friend of course .

cigarette

apa definisi rokok itu ? selinting tembakau yang dibungkus oleh kertas dan sidumbat oleh gabus dan dibakar kemudian dihisap , apakah begitu ? atau hanya , selinting uang yang ditukarkan dengan tembakau dan akhirnya di uamh itu dibakar menghasilkan asap . definisi rokok menurutku ada pada definisi kedua . ya , itu uang mu yang kau bakar dan hisap dan akhirnya menjadi kepulan asap yang mengganggu orang lain .

apa keuntungan merokok ? ada yang bisa menjelaskan padaku apa saja keuntungannya ? yakinkan aku kalau merokok itu lebih banyak untungnya daripada ruginya . sejauh yang aku tau , aku hanya sering mendengarkan terdapat banyak kerugian setelah orang menjadi pecandu rokok . maaf , mungkin pabrik2 rokok banyak disini sehingga banyak pula orang yang bekerja disana , tapi singkirkan sebentar kenyataan itu . sekarang lebih banyak orang yang beruntung atau orang yang menderita karena rokok ? sekarang pikirkan , kalian akan terkena dampak dari merokok itu , cepat atau lambat . tidak pernahkah kalian berpikir kalian juga membahayakan orang terkena dampak dari rokok kalian , hei sang perokok ? aku tahu kalian pasti tau apa dampak dari merokok dan juga dampak dari perokok pasif . ya , LEBIH BAHAYA MENJADI PEROKOK PASIF DARIPADA PEROKOK ITU SENDIRI . mengertikah kalian bahwa menurut saya merokok itu sangat , SANGAT EGOIS ? perokok tidak pernah berpikir panjang . hanya mau enaknya saja , sorry , that's what I feel .

lalu , darimanakah uang yang kalian dapatkan untuk membeli rokok . uang kalian sendiri ? hai kalian para pelajar , sudah bisakah kalian membeli sebatang rokok dengan uang hasil peluh kalian sendiri ? taukah kalian kalian telah membakar uang yang dihasilkan oleh orang tua kalian dengan membanting tulang ? berpikirlah !

aku memang tidak suka seorang perokok , bukan berarti aku akan menjauhi mereka . aku tidak melarang , tapi hanya mengingatkan . ya , sekali lagi aku memang tidak suka. banyak teman disekitarku adalah pecandu rokok . setiap hari mereka menghabiskan beberapa batang atau mungkin beberapa bungkus rokok . untuk apa semua itu ? untuk BERGAYA kah ? mengikuti trend ? untuk dihargai dan disegani teman karena kalian adalah seorang perokok ? KAMPUNGAN ! kalian hanya akan mempersingkat hidup , hanya akan merusak tubuh , hanya akan membuat orang lain sakit , hanya akan membuat orang lain dan kalian sendiri mengeluh . PIKIRKAN !

aku ingin teman2ku sadar kalau merokok itu todak baik , buat apa merokok ? pikirkan itu lagi . aku hanya ingin orang2 yang aku sayangi sehat , tidak membuang2 uang hanya untuk membeli se-pak barang TIDAK PENTING yang hanya akan merusak tubuh sendiri dn orang lain . meskipun terkadang kalian hanya minta kepada teman .

mungkin banyak yang tidak setuju atau marah membaca tulisan ini , tapi maaf , saya hanya ingin menyampaikan apa yang saya rasakan saat ini . kemuakan saya akan orang2 yang saya sayangi karena mereka mulai mencoba rokok . lebih baik jangan , say mohon ~

conversation with my teacher

when I turn on my facebook chat , I found one of my teachers on line. one off my crazy teacher who like to teased me . everyday he teases me when we met . sometimes it very funny but sometimes it got annoyed , huh -,-

you can read today I teased him back , it's very funny . I laught out loud . that's the picture of my conversation . if you understand Java language , maybe you understand what I talking about . I asked why he didn't have any plan to go out , it was Saturday Night . time to get happy , come out with your friend aour have a date with your GF or BF . but he said he couldn't walk and I asked him to "NGESOT" haha . sorry sir , I'm very impolite :p

h - 2 final exam

#prayforSisca everyone , I got sick :( my body got warm , and I felt so unconfortable with my body . breathing with the only one side of my nose . ugh , it's so bother me now . I have final examination for my Senior High School on monday , and I'm sure if my "hatchi-hatchi" don't come good I cann't concentrate with my test .

please #prayforSisca . I want be health next monday .

Hilo Green Reporter !

hello readers , thanks for always visiting my blog . would you like to help me ? please look at this my friends video . they following a competition that name is Hilo Green Reporter . vote this video if you like . and thanks for watching it . you're one click to this video are very mean for my friends . enjoy the video :)

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this is the first video .

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and this is the second .

I missing something (!)

sometimes you cann't avoid one thing that make you happy , make you in love or make you disappointed , or make you missing to someone who adore . but , do you know that I missing something that make me "miss you" ? I don't know why I can past it . but clearly I say that time help me to missing someone that I adore . people who don't know me very well maybe say that I cruel or something, or maybe they ask me "are you kidding that you didn't miss someone that you adore ? you didn't love him !" no , no . I adore him , and I love him . much . but he ask me to forget this feeling and woppie , I can past one important thing . just need time for it . don't judge me I wouldn't hold on with my feeling for him , I just to too tired . maybe I JUST STOP SHOWING , people :)

he still would be a part of life and love my story , exactly . no one can replace him , no one can be like him . and no one can be him ! he's one , always the one . thanks for the everything you gave to me . and never hurt me , it just this feeling that me feel hurt . just remember , someday I will miss you and you will miss me . but now , I don't want miss you . I still have the same feeling like yesterday by the way . I just learn how I can life with my own self without bother you .

would you tell me do I wrong or false in this part ? maybe you will happy reading this post . you will say that I take a right way to forgetting you .. I know you have someone you like . and you don't want me to bother you . so I let you free , I don't want this feeling guiding you . but , if you have a same feeling don't be so shy to talk to me that you have it and miss me . you know where I'm . and maybe I still have this feeling you , save it for you :) don't be afraid to express something in your heart , if you afraid you must ready to hurt , disappointed and maybe you don't have anything . I always struggle to guide my feeling for you , even I stop showing it just ask me to knowing the truth .

I can't lie yo everyone that I overprotective to you , and now you can compare that I'm not overprotect anymore . you free now . I'm sorry for everything that I did in the past . you will happy without me , and I will happy without you . maybe I will more happy if I can in your side until ? ah , it's a big imagine . we don't know what will happen in tomorrow , people just can predic it . so , just let it flow .

good night love , see you when I feel missing you . sleep tight and have a blessed dream . Love ya :)

That's a sweet memories

thanks god for give a chance to met they

a very happy second family I have

what a sweet memori !